2nd last day of 2015

Today is already the 30th of December 2015. One more day to left to 2016.
How is everyone feeling now?
Excited? Trill? Happy? Or you felt reluctant as me to step into the New Year 2016?

I wasn't feeling so excited or enthusiastic to such thing.
New Year to me meaning just another day we have to go, to search, to treasure.
Is just a day which everyone who is living have to go through.
We can't stop the time...so just walk with it.

But there is some people I knew, feeling very excited with this and start arranging Countdown night event for this occasion. They like to have gathering among their friends, to spend the time with friends, be with their friends.

As me is always feeling like left out or and outlier in the group.
People talk, I only listen.
People laugh, I laugh along.
People play, I felt left out.
Occasion with lots of people, every time put me in a weird situation.
An awful awkward moment time for me to be with people. Although I knew them, they were not stranger for your info.
But somehow this awkward feeling is there.
Is like I am lost whenever they speak stuff that I am not with them.
The feeling like I am alien in the group is there, and the worst part is nobody even care to bother my feeling.

They have a special discussion group and I'm not in that group. So whatever they said is like I am so left out. Event of the event planner seem like doesn't wanted me to be in there, but was unfortunately being told by someone who is in the group by a slip of words and I am in the event like last minute attendee. Kinda sound sad, isn't it?

If wasn't for this particular person who seem like purposely slip out the word, I think I'm totally out of their sight for this event.

So before the event I can felt the feeling which I'm going to face tomorrow countdown.

Should I be there or not? Because the venue haven't being decided and I am still untold till today.