30 days to 2018

30 days to 2018....😩😰😱

Every second, every minute...time don't wait.

What will be, will be.

For better or worst?

Nobody knows.

Everything not ours to control.

Just do your best each day.

We can't please everyone, just go with the flow.

Even you can't reach your goal, never give up.

Try again and again.

For God knows the best for you.

弟兄姐妹朋友同事不喜欢你，忍耐吧。

上帝会赐福与你的。

加油!!! 加油!!!

Sudden cancellation

When you think your schedule is fully occupied. So, you rush everything to make sure you can make it on time for a certain planned event. Unfortunately, a sudden message came when you only left like 500m to the venue with the saying, "Is cancelled" Then your schedule also suddenly turn to a blank one for that particular time.

"What am I gonna do now? What the hack am I rushing for just now?" Anger and frustration all over the place. No wonder people said, Why wanna help them when they only find you when they need you and ignore you when they don't? Don't need to be kind to others.

Arghhh...if I knew earlier, better join Dr. Stephen Tong's Talk...than wasting my time now all at home.

Lesson learnt: Don't ever answer "Yes or OK" out of empathy or kindness because nobody will care how you feel after it cancelled. Be kind also is a sin because people will only take advantages out of you.

真心

这世界上，为何没有人是真心的呢？

为什么都不可以单纯的做个好朋友呢？

为何都要耍心机？

为利益。为财。为權的呢。

难道世界上，都变得那么冷漠吗？

M.I.A

M.I.A here is for abbreviation of "Missing In Action".

I had been good and kind for too long. Seldom said, "No" to other favor and keep helping them whenever I can. And now people surrounding me started to take for granted of my kindness as of 理所当然的。

Always being transparent among them. Be with them, they ignore your existence. They only talk to you when they need your help in a certain things which only benefited them. Once you gave your favor they ignore you back.

They even set up bad plans to prevent me from talking or sitting whomsoever. They are plotting something evil behind my back. Because they want that person to only belong to them.

Sometimes you need be gone or out from the group for a while for good.

If they miss you, they will find you back.

If is not, then it means you don't belong to the group anymore.

So is time to make decision from their action.

She is Strong

Haven't been writing for a long long time.

Suddenly, I need a place to vent out my sadness. And known none a suitable place than here. So I come back here. Only knew is almost a year it being left untouch...after another 3 months is totally a year. Sorry, my bloggie.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. During the sermon at Sunday Service, talked about Mother's love. I sobbed so much.

Today, morning I prepared my own lunch with just only Maggi Mee. Breakfast usually 2 hard-boiled eggs but none, just 2 slices of white bread with a cheese.

Luckily, God knew I was not that full and bought a sad lunch. He send a colleague who came to offer Nasi lemak. So, I had mine at office. Considered a hearty meal for the day.

My Mummy fall sick since last November 2016 until now. Her condition only seems worsen. Nobody in my fellowship knew this, the news only remains within my family.

She usually is a strong woman, rarely fall sick. Even if she had a hard time in life she endured it well. She wake up early in the morning to prepare breakfast and our lunch to bring either to school during our childhood time or now for us to bring to work.

Coming back from school or work, she is busy in the kitchen preparing our dinner. She do house chores, laundry, hear our lament etc etc and sleep late.

But my strong woman fall sick and now kept laying on bed.

I missed her healthy look. I missed her food.

I don't want her to be gone as she is not only my Mummy but also my one and only best friend in this world. She will listen all my story and advise me to be a more better person. Although she now laying on bed, she keep teaching me how to cook for the family in replacement of her.

Mummy I love you, I want you to be healthy back. And have a long life to be around me.

Hopefully she will have a speedy recovery and in a pink of health.
Happy Mother Day, Mummy.