Durian

Durian....

My neighbour is having durian. The smell is so tempting.

The main problem is, Right now already past ten at night. Am lying on my bed with that tempting smell.

Will I be dreaming of durian tonight?

Okay should stop talking about durian and start sleeping. If not, I may feel hungry.

Good night.

Future

Future? What is future means to you?

What our future going to hold?

What will you be in ten years or twenty years from now?

I had watch a Korean variety show from one of my favourite F(x) idol girl group named 'Amazing f(x)'. Theses girls talked about what will they be after twenty years later?

The eldest Unnie (Victoria Song) said, she will own a bakery shop, pet a big dog which will take her to shopping and a house with a big yard.

Her others member asked her, "Don't you marriage?" She said, she won't because she is afraid of labor pain.

Then other member said "You can marry and don't have child. There is sure some guy who dislike child too."

Then all the other member dream were almost the same. That is get marry and have son as their first born and the second is daughter.

Amber and Krystal just want two kids while Sulli wants three but she is also fine with two kids. Meantime, Luna wants eight childs.

Haha...what a dream or plan/ goal.

While me? I also don't know what will I be tomorrow. How am I suppose to plan for my next 20 years time? If the one I plan never happen, will I be more disappointed? If it happened but no the same like I plan maybe divert to a totally different path that what I originally planned, what will I feel? Happy or sad?

I know is good to have goal or plan like something within a month or two, but to me maybe not something which is very far away like 20 years..ermm a year plan is fine I think. Because we never know will we still be alive to fulfill what we had plan. If we are still alive, are we still that healthy and can move freely like now to fulfill all those? Because things can happen and change from time to time. Nothing is forever.

Matthew 6: 34 said "So do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings."

I have a plan or dream when I was a child, but it never happened and till now I am still a little sad about it. So maybe just follow the flow and we can be more happy, isn't it. But this doesn't means I am giving up.

I am still trying my best for it and there is a little goal that every body dreamt of having that is MARRIAGE. But this thing can easily be done like what is easily being said. Why? Because marriage is something done by two person not you alone can be done. To find the suitable soulmate need time and patience, destiny and fate too.

Do you happen to set a goal for your future?

Something like, what will you be in 20 years time from now? And what is it? Maybe you can share in my comment below. And see is planning for something like 20 years a must?

Do for God

"Do everything just to please God. Do not worry about what other said or did to you."

This was a phrase given from a Sister in Christ to me.

Is really my pleasure to meet sure a Sister. She really teach me to feel better in service My Lord.

Although I am afraid and nervous but this phrase did help me to reduce my panic attack.

So, let Do everything JUST to please GOD. We are not doing it for human been normal eyes sight but for the Lord, Our Father in Heaven. Just relax and chill so you won't be afraid. No matter what the outcome will be just remember God is watching you always.

Thanks My Lord. Amen.

2015

Happy New Year for 2015. Hope I am not to late to wish my reader.

Is already the fifth day of 2015, so fast, right.

What is not same this year compared to last year (2014)?

Ermm...I still can remember is 2015 and keep writing 2014 instead during working. Either I have very weak brain or is I am used to 2014...haha.

Then, I think I need to have dental check-ups this year to do my front teeth filling. Although I am going to be so nervous but that is important because front tooth is where our smile can be seen. What to do? I am going to search for a good dentist in my nearby area and is a must this year since I kept dragging for years.

I suddenly felt I have so many responsibility this 2015 compared to my 2014. Why?
I have been in the same church for about 5 years and I am actually kinda sad when nobody seem to know me but suddenly this year all keep approaching me to join this and that. The very interesting things was they seem to be very amazingly knew my name. Does God answer my prayer or I have been set up like "Just For Laugh" Canadian show? But my most enthusiasm things were to meet more new friends this years and help out in the Children's Camp and maybe can join the 2015 Christmas Carolling ever since last 2 years.

Whatever is it? I need to be more happy and start a new life with new year for new hope. And may God keep be with me to guide and lead me to the correct and happy path, for I know I am not walking alone but God is accompany me. Amen.