December!!

Back then (childhood time), I really love "December" because usually that is the month with the most school holidays. Even in Uni life, you also have the semester break, but since adulthood, life of "December" is the worst nightmare ever.

Checking my calender this morning got me into real surprised as this is the FINAL WEEK of NOVEMBER...and the beautiful and at the same time hateful December is coming soon.

The BEAUTY of "December" is CHRISTMAS is around the corner. YIPPEE!!! and the worst HATEFUL part of it is the closing account time for the every year, which also mean I'm going extremely busy and crazy time of the year. 

Ever since I am working in this finance field, I don't really seem to enjoy December, because that is the time where everything have to be ended nicely in that month or else next year (the January) will be more troublesome. 

Hopefully, this year December can treat me nicely and all my colleague can give me full co-operation to close the account of year 2014 with a good smile. May God keeps giving me strength to overcome all the obstacle and hindrance that trying to stop me from doing my work properly. 

Good night.

Turtle

Sometime I think I live a life like a turtle.

Why do I say such a thing? Whereby I'm a human being. A real Homosapien.

So why do I need to live like a amphibian. 

This is because I feel like I love to stay in my own shell but once I get bored inside the shell, I will popped my head out to see the beautiful outside world.

Nevertheless there is always some bad people surrounding my shell which will poke and hit my head once I am trying to see the world.

With no choice I will hurried to shrink my head into my turtle's shell again.

Assuming that my tutle's shell is my comfort zone. A zone which I can't get hurt easily and felt the most safest place ever.

I know I seem to look very fragile and weak. Somehow this is the only way that I can safe myself from those hurtful people.

Although going back into the shell, I will be regretted the most were the beautiful of the nature outside the turtle's shell that I hide in. I will definitely miss the nature of the flora and fauna. I don't have much option.

Please tell me how to be strong to crawl out of my shell.

Alone?

Just like the title said so "ALONE"!

What will you do if you are all alone in a public place?

I am sure a lot of you will be playing with their latest devices such as smartphone, iPad, mp4 or anything that can keep you busy for awhile without looking weird all by yourself A.L.O.N.E!

I have tried doing a lone ranger window shopping for nearly every weekends when I'm so bored. Walking aimlessly with slow paced searching for something that amuse or catches my eyesight.

And I do really found something new like tools which I never encounters, books full with wisdom and knowledge that sometime can make me stay at the bookstore for almost a full whole day to read. A Bookstore turn into myself mini library? Hihi... That is also a way that I can save my money and gain knowledge at the same time.

Then I will have my meal all alone just by myself. Is kinda sad and looks like desperate as you sit down and eat lonely. Like an abandon person. So LONELY...haiz...what to do?

But what can I do when I am indeed all by myself during the lone ranger shopping time. Nobody can accompany me when I need them.


Sometime even you were with your friends and family or even in a crowded place but you can feel all A.L.O.N.E too. I mean the FEELING is like empty and all ALONE although your were in a busy, noisy from your surrounding of crowded people.

There is a time where you feel that you don't belong to the group or community that you were joining. I do feel this sometimes when there is an occasion where I was forcefully with order from superior to attend a event unwillingly. Is like a sense of duty that you have to attend it.

Or where there is a awkward moment in the group that you were having a conversation, which you felt were outliers, transparent and all of sudden that feel ALONE will arise. There is a feeling or is just my sensitivity is too high that I feel the topic they were discussing is non-related to me or not interesting or is so boring that make me feel I am left out.


So do you thing being ALONE by YOURSELF (physically) or FEELING LONELY (mentally or emotionally) is better?

I feel being ALONE by YOURSELF is more better as you can have your ME-time but just plainly strangely awkward doing things all by yourself to the public's eyes. AND while FEELING LONELY is more worst as you feel you don't belong to the world or something more strangely thinking that can run through your head saying maybe I am ALIEN to this WORLD...sometime I just say silently within my heart, "Is okay. You will be fine as your are the child of God, so the world treat you different is okay because your status to this world is different." That is just a self-caring as there is none to do so, when you need it.

Is okay, I will be fine.

Dreams Come True

Recently, I watched Dreams Come True (꿈은 이루어진다) a Korean Movie about the North Korean and South Korean military both united for the love of soccer.

Picture Credit: AsianWiki.com

Is a comedy and touching brotherhood love to protect each other to safe the life of their Staff Sergeant who is going to be put to death as being labelled as a South Korean spy by the North Korean Headquarter military investigator. Which then the actual was not being a spy but for his love of the soccer which the South Korean were enlisted into the World Cup in 2002.

Trust me the ending will make you tears. I was hoping the North Korea and South Korea will be united like this story where they can play soccer happily together, enjoying the broadcast together without any barrier. Just omit the ending of this movie where there is misunderstanding end up in killing, torturing, shooting of innocent.

I know this is an old movie, which is actually released during year 2010. But is a well recommended movie to watch if you want to know how is actually North Korean military look like. And that the last last ending don't miss out as I am not going to tell you here...so watch it for yourself in case I am spoiling the movie for you.

For more information about the cast and this movie, you can check it out here. Just click on the highlighted for the link.

Credit link: AsianWiki.com

Flu

Hi.
Haven't update here for quite some time. About a month or more than a month?
And now I'm writing here to update about my health condition.

I am not feeling well for this past two days. Nose is running by itself..hihi...a synonym to 'running nose'.

Then fever come suddenly out from the blue. Luckily is only a mild fever which can be cure with a couple tablets of Panadol with a little rest.

The only troublesome is the nose lead to cough, and this makes my day not good. But reaching home with 'Kolok Mee' as dinner and flu medicine as the prevention is a no joke. As I was too full with just a small packet of 'Kolok Mee' is ridiculous maybe I am still sick, wasn't in my best health.

So I had my medicine quite late nearly 10pm!

Hopefully I'm fully recover and can write here often too. Okay, Good night.

Different timeline

Today is very cold, I think maybe is near autumn season. This reminds me of Autumn in My Heart K-drama, a very sad story with sad ending. 

Anywhere cold weather make you feel sleepy and your heart kinda of feeling more lonely. 

Will I be able to find my the other half to complete me? 

Or maybe he wasn't in my recent timeline that I need to go into some time travelling  machine to find my the other half? Something like The Great Doctor K-drama where Yoo Eun Soo find her other half from the past era which is the General Choi Young and for the sake of love she willing to give up everything from her present era to return back to the past to reconcile with him. 

But I know that is just a fictional story, it can't be true. If it is true or you were given such a chance will you take that path like Eun Soo did? 

Or you will just return to you originally era to be back with your family you career? 

Whatever path you choose do let me know in the comment below and Goodnite.

Chorister

Yesterday at church, I was sitting next to this guy who sing very well, full with strength, so powerful and well-rounded.

I guess that the real meaning of singing with your diaphragm when my ex-chorister taught me back then.

I felt so ashamed singing Praise & Worship song beside this guy but after all we're singing to God :) so needless to be shame right. Somehow, I felt very small suddenly...hihi..luckily there have pinyin in all the song if not I won't be able to utter a single word that will be even more shameful.

I miss my choir life back then...and what I learnt yesterday is "人比人，气死人"...so I shouldn't be comparing myself to a professional chorister, don't I.

*****

By the way, here a song for everyone of you, is a song where my church keep singing it almost nearly 3 months and I really love it, I think I can even remember the lyrics of it.

The title is '恩典之路' the Pinyin  is En Dian Zhi Lu and the English title is The Path of Grace.

Cr. Youtube uploader (joshua grenn)

Notes from the uploader or it can said the translation in English is:

You are my Lord. You lead me in the path of righteousness.

In the high mountains or the low valleys you protected me.

In the midst of Million people you love me and know me.

You promises of blessings will never change.

Step by step , this is the path of grace.

Your love, Your hand will grasp me tightly.

Step by step, this is the path of hope.

Your love, Your hand, will guide me through this path of life.

*****

Thanks my Lord for everything, for your leading me to the righteousness path. Thanks Lord for me be with in every step I take, guide me and never let be alone.

Amen.